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big playa
2003-05-01 at 8:42 p.m. god damn my neurotic emotional being. anyways..leaving for cleveland tommarow for the band senior trip. woo hoo. rock n' roll hall of fame, baseball game, cedar point, hanging out with some band geeks. yahoo. skipped the end of school today to hang out with mitch. we spent a half hour in a fish store, because fish seem to be his obsession. humorous to watch him go from tank to tank in some sort of awe. chilled at his house for a little bit, then back home again. i wish i could have had more of a day with him, but i had to stick around for band, which meant not leaving until 12, when i could've gotten out of there at 9. oh well, love band:) back to being an emotional basket case. i get so sad over...nothing. i just get real sad, real emotional, real...neurotic. you'd think that id been raped, had an eating disorder, been kicked out of my house, the whole works by the way i feel some days. sometimes i wonder if i had a whole bunch of shitty past lives that i never quite got over. and im clingy. oh god am i clingy. but, if the person i cling to gets clingy, all hell breaks lose. then it becomes some sort of "who cares more" game. i play too many games..that must be it. im one big player. with too many hoes.
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