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where are you going
2003-05-26 at 4:02 p.m. hello there. its been one of those days. tried to go shopping, was given $70 and came home with nothing. nothing seemed right, i felt like everyone was watching me, i felt gross. i really cant handle my mood swings some days. marched in the parade today...good time. last band event that involves playing. pretty crazy, this year is so close to over. and i need this summer so badly, i hated this year. it's incredible to think that in two weeks its all over. this supposed huge part of my life. high school. for me personally, i liked the person i was in kindgerarten a whole hell of a lot better than the person i am now. it seems that high school is a daily reminder to us all that certain things, that shouldn't matter, make or break us. our hair, our clothes, what we do on the weekends. and it's still just like that in these last few days. the halls are still some sort of runway. and i can't help but sit here and think, so when is it that im supposed to feel grown up? when is it that im supposed to be okay with who i am? graduation is supposed to be some final thing, a close to a chapter of your life. this end however has left me with nothing but questions, worries, and a sense of unstableness. where do i go from here?
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