|
she's a brick
2003-05-23 at 9:48 a.m. everything has been such a mess this last 5 days, although you would never know by looking at me. everything is falling apart, and for once i am not over-exagerating, not maing something little into something big. this is huge, this is life changing. and, again, im the screw up. this is perhaps the ultimate screw up. i find out today if im ok or not, and im so afraid to hear the truth. i still feel so little, so young. *wanna get into a car and go anywhere. here i stand, sad and free, and i can't cry, and i cant see what i've done. no God, what have i done?* *Up the stairs to her apartment, she is balled up on the couch. her mom and dad went down to charlotte...they're not home to find us out. and we drive. now that i have found someone, i'm feeling more alone than i ever have before. she's a brick and i'm drownin' slowly, off the coast and i'm headed nowhere. she's a brick and i'm drownin' slowly. they call her name at seven-thirty, i pace around the parking lot and i walk down to buy her flowers, and sell some gifts that I got. can't you see..it's not me you're dying for. now she's feeling more alone than she ever has before. weeks went by, it showed that she was not fine. they told me, "son it's time to tell the truth," and she broke down and i broke down, cause I was tired of lying. driving back to her apartment for the moment we're alone. yeah she's alone. and i'm alone. now i know it...she's a brick and i'm drownin' slowly off the coast and i'm headed nowhere...she's a brick and i'm drownin' slowly*
previous & next
|
|