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heeey, you've got to hide your love away
2003-10-08 at 8:46 p.m. i want to rant and rave, but my emotions are failing me. i dont have it in me to write about what sucks in life right now, or offer excuses for happiness. all ive been lately is bitter. i have a few hours each day where im ok, but it mostly comes back to not being ok. and to feel like you have that little control over your life is the worst feeling imaginable. its almost as bad as realizing each day when you wake up that those dreams are just memories. i wake up so so lonely. i feel empty. for that breif moment before my eyes open, i feel like im back to how things were. and then im struck by reality, and its like spiraling out of control. thats really what is i guess. i suppose that if you love someone, go ahead and tell them, and make them promise they'll love you forever and never hurt you. then you can throw it back in their face when they dont love you anymore and they hurt you. and, another thing, don't believe what comes out of a 16 or 17 year old boys mouth. or your own 16 or 17 year old mouth for that matter. if id known it would hurt this much...
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