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school and all that
2003-10-09 at 4:33 p.m. i had this brief window of hope today. for about an hour i was happy. 100% happy. and for no reason really, just like i always used to be. i got out of my car and the air just smelled so good, and the weather was so warm, and everything just looked beautiful. about halfway to my class i smiled to myself and thought "wow, im really happy. like, the real kind. not the fake it kind." and it was so odd. it felt so good for that little while to be just fine. i went and got food with josh today at bocces. (which is where the height of my happiness deteriorated as this is where mitch works and its across from north) that was a good time though. after i went over to adam's house and hung out with him for a bit. i still love him to death. :) right now im not the happiest because i have an essay to write and ive been listening to ben folds, etc. mitch is most likely coming to two classes with me tommarow to see what ub is like. hopefully that'll work out, i'd really like him to see what my life is like at ub. also, mel, id like to come to ecc with you for a day! it'd be fun to see what your school is like. i like knowing what everyone's doing, their little lives they've created outside of high school. its funny to realize that our graduating class is all over the place now creating lives for ourselves. i strongly believe that a lot of us are probably pretty miserable. or maybe i just hope that so i dont feel so bad. but i like ub. i just dont like the hugeness, and the loneliness, and the "hey, im just a number!"-ness. but i do like my classes and the few people i have become friends with. and i do like the size somewhat also. i love my huge lecture classes because the teachers are cool and i dont have much homework. i was just thinking, if i put half the amount of thought into my school work as i do in these entries, i'd be golden. and, with that, i have an essay to write.
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